I am 25, boy 30. We have been together for 5 years, we have been living together for almost a year. We both have a job, we plan to start a family one day. Last night I told him that I am not ready for children yet, that maybe its not time for work because only a few months Im working, that I still have a few exams and that I have to finish these things so that I can dedicate myself to the children, which he got angry with and said that he doesnt have time to wait for me until I finish what I have and his years pass. she told him that she was free to find one and to marry and start a family if it was only because of his age.
I have a feeling there is no place for me here. So many loud, noisy people. So many stories and events that don’t involve me. I don’t feel like I belong anywhere. This society pushed me all the way out. I cant push myself for someone to hear me, see me, appreciate me. Im all disgusted anyway. Im sorry I became like this.
The way I survive family gatherings (90% of my relatives are so evil that Mexican soap operas are a little baby) is to pretend to be a spy working on a very important mission. My goal is to find out more and more details and if I get switches and negative comments, I respond politely so as not to reveal my identity
The ex left me because I didnt have a job for almost 2 years, I only did some little things on the black market. But I recently met a man who arranged my job over a relationship (I’m not proud of that, but I had no choice). Good position, good starting salary and various overtime bonuses. Now that she found out, she started begging me to reconcile. If I wasn’t good to her as a poor man, I have nothing to do with her now that I live decently.
After 2 years of marriage, I can say that the same rule from American movies applies, everything you say can and will be used against you.
The guy talked to another about stupid girls and what are the advantages of having a stupid girl. They are supposed to be fun and make your life happy with their low intelligence. I think he looks at me like a fool and it really hurts me. We don’t have many common themes and I haven’t read them but he knew that before. He could have chosen a smarter one but he didnt like any other, he just fell in love with me. I am stupid to have chosen such a guy, a guy who is worth more than me just because I fell in love, without any common interests and similarities. Im so stupid. And this infatuation will pass soon, the relationship is already in crisis. The more we talk or dont talk because we have nothing to talk about, the more it is in crisis.