It pops up in my memories on the fb picture from two years ago, I realize that I never looked better than then, and again the saddest, freshly left, because I wasnt good enough for the guy at the time to be in love. And then I look at myself now next to the man of my life, my wife, with 20 kg more than that day, in the ninth month of pregnancy, never happier and more loved in life. And thats the whole message to you, my dears - sometimes its just not enough, no matter how much you are the best version of yourself and work hard for someone, if that person is not right, and vice versa if you are. <3
I am 25, boy 30. We have been together for 5 years, we have been living together for almost a year. We both have a job, we plan to start a family one day. Last night I told him that I am not ready for children yet, that maybe its not time for work because only a few months Im working, that I still have a few exams and that I have to finish these things so that I can dedicate myself to the children, which he got angry with and said that he doesnt have time to wait for me until I finish what I have and his years pass. she told him that she was free to find one and to marry and start a family if it was only because of his age.
I am a person who truly rejoices in small things. Lately, when Im glad for something, my eyes water. Its not very pleasant if it happens at work while the boss tells me how her daughter passed the exam, or if colleagues are going to have a baby, etc ...
I have a feeling there is no place for me here. So many loud, noisy people. So many stories and events that don’t involve me. I don’t feel like I belong anywhere. This society pushed me all the way out. I cant push myself for someone to hear me, see me, appreciate me. Im all disgusted anyway. Im sorry I became like this.
The way I survive family gatherings (90% of my relatives are so evil that Mexican soap operas are a little baby) is to pretend to be a spy working on a very important mission. My goal is to find out more and more details and if I get switches and negative comments, I respond politely so as not to reveal my identity
The guy talked to another about stupid girls and what are the advantages of having a stupid girl. They are supposed to be fun and make your life happy with their low intelligence. I think he looks at me like a fool and it really hurts me. We don’t have many common themes and I haven’t read them but he knew that before. He could have chosen a smarter one but he didnt like any other, he just fell in love with me. I am stupid to have chosen such a guy, a guy who is worth more than me just because I fell in love, without any common interests and similarities. Im so stupid. And this infatuation will pass soon, the relationship is already in crisis. The more we talk or dont talk because we have nothing to talk about, the more it is in crisis.
The ex left me because I didnt have a job for almost 2 years, I only did some little things on the black market. But I recently met a man who arranged my job over a relationship (I’m not proud of that, but I had no choice). Good position, good starting salary and various overtime bonuses. Now that she found out, she started begging me to reconcile. If I wasn’t good to her as a poor man, I have nothing to do with her now that I live decently.
I am 22 years old, he is 42. He is divorced, and he got married and had children very young, so his daughters are 22 and 20 years old. It doesn’t bother me, but it bothers them. They are trying in every way to separate him from me, they are spitting at me and inventing lies that are spreading through the city, and since we have a common society, that is what happened to them. They tell me that Im a jerk, a sponsor and the like, even though Im not with him at all because of the money, but because I love him. He tells me how he talks to them, but its not worth it, and if I just ignore them, hell get used to it. As soon as I finish college, we plan to move to another city, as far away from them as possible. And we could have a good time, but they obviously dont care about their fathers happiness.